Emptiness and love affairs - the absent trace

 Kaleidoscope with his endless succession of depthless presents embraces an empty signifier the whole wide world likes to call as love. Love, to be loved is often a longing for a home that never exists. Indeed this empty signifier makes love ever more coveted. Kaleidoscope like his fellow countrymen aims at attaching love with person, objects and over and above everything fleeting realities. 

... and then against all the odds, love arrives, in its purest and tender form, like a neverending storm. Is this home? Asks Kaleido? Home? what is a home? does it exist beyond the moment in which Kaleidoscope immerses and finds himself. One kiss, one touch, one moment of holding hands, touching fingers and looking at the person, while everything else melts down. Is this going to last forever? 

What is the forever? Why Kaleidoscope is so enamored with permanency when the entire world is becoming more transient and mirrored? In the heart of the built in city, Kaleidoscope notices the buildings only have the foundations, the rest is glassy. Glassy! yes, non-permanent, transparent and again fleeting. What if the mirror breaks down?

What if the mirror breaks down? Kaleidoscope looks at the ceiling of the his favourite joints, they are all black! Why black? Because no one looks at them? Who says no one? he was looking to find  out post-office red painted water pipes, what if there is a fire? also the AC ducts hanging naked! Werent they supposed to wear a proper false ceiling. 

False ceiling? False and ceiling, where is the true ceiling then? Well its painted black, invisible! 

Kaleidoscope kisses everything that he feels like permanent, loneliness, emptiness, fleeting signifires, black ceilings, even if they are invisible, even if they are leaving an absent trace. 

Kaleoscope decides to seek the fleeting and empty signifiers for the rest of his life, be it dark, be it dampy, be it moist and full of tears, Kaleidscope still believes in love affairs.  

disciplining, anarchy and the broken dreams

Just an weekend approaching when the entire world is trying to make things different. Christmas some call it, some find it in the new year, some find it in their birthdays. Making out extraordinary from people's otherwise regular disciplined lives. Kaliedoscope thought of giving a benefit of doubt about his fellow planetmates, yes they need a reason to celebrate, they need an occassion to to go beyond the disciplinary boundaries. Only once may be, or a few times in a year.

So, the not so classy people have Biswakarma, a bit classy has the Kalipuja, and the superclassy has the Christmas and New year parties. 

So kaleidoscope's beloved government gives a discount in the night curfew, thought Kaliedoscope with his critical self intact. However, in the midnight, it's kaleidoscope opening up himself to the world, embracing all the the disciplinings and the challenges he thought he was making in his everyday life. Therefore kaleidoscope too looks half faced, half dark in his deadly combination of punishing self and the disciplinings. 

In sum CHEERS.