Its only that we knew you will leave us forever, I thought the sooner the better, as you have suffered for so long, but deep inside we were never prepared to let you go.
Its only that the moment you left us forever, the moment when you looked at me and mother knew for sure you are leaving I didn't cry but only wanted you to stay back for one more time.
Its only that i have never cried, because, something kept reminding me of the things to be done when you are alone.
Its only that your sitar, esraje, tabla, tanpura look at us and i could hear you are saying ''my fingers are changing, I wont be able to play Sitar any long."
Its only the smell of your cancerous cells which I started hating now I miss.
Its only the sound of your pain that I miss...
Its only the world that has changed once and for all... because non believers know there is no comeback except for those tiny little memories you make. Its only that your dog knows so do we... there were more memories we wanted to make... there were more life we could have lived, together.
We know life lies between coming and going but departure is always the most remembered memory one can ever have. Departure starts another journey for both who is going away and the one left behind. When they both know that they will never cross the path again, memories are the only letters keep reaching to your address. Our entire life we try to let things go but at the end we may find that we kept everything with us. It's the hardest thing to bid goodbye to the loved ones, but if we keep them loving, they are never gone.
ReplyDeleteCry whenever you need. Tears do not fade any memories. They keep you human.